.Wednesday, February 14, 2007 ' 11:24 AM Y
lose one friend, lose all friends, lose yourself
Talking about dream, i really can't sleep well these few days because i have alot of drama dream going on in the night...
a horrible dream...
i dreamt that i witnessed this guy is stabbing this girl right in front of me. i was horrified but i still have the courage to ask him why did he kill her(in reality, i would probably faint because i am scare of blood! muhaha) then he told me that she knew too much of my secret and he is doing that to protect me... (oh how .... DUMB!) anyway, i realised that girl was actually my friend - close friend! that guy then grabbed my hand and started to run away from the scene.
the next scene was like a conversation between this guy and me. i was still questioning him why does he want to kill my friend! the conversation goes like this...
j: why do u want to kill her?
man: she knew too much liao. how can u allow her to blackmail u?
j start to recall ...
then i remembered i actually caused two death of my 2 good friends indirectly. the first one was actually melissa lolx. the second friend whom i can't recall, actually provoke me in a fight and i kill her like this. sound like i am a violent woman. then i actually asked that guy whom i mention above to help me to bury her. but so "lucky" that this third victim actually witnessed it, so this guy help me to kill her! woah... my hero.... stupid hero... haiz...
then i started to feel guilty and scare... guilt of killing my friend and scare of kana caught by the police. then i went back to that conversation with that guy again...
j: wad lau, now u kill another person because of me, i am more guilty liao..
man: dun worry, u just pretend that u dunno who did it.
j: then do u think the police will suspect me?
man: u pretend u dunno anything.
j: okay. so u settle everything liao lolx.
this conversation may sound comical to u guys but it really took place lol. this guy is not chris and i dunno who the hell is this guy trying to protect me!!! wahaha... i dun feel sweet but still feeling scare and guilty in my dream. DAMN! then one day, i took the mrt back home and i saw someone.... i saw melissa! she was smiling at me and i was so freaked up! then i asked ....
j: u alive?
mel: yup.
j: but i thought u ....
then mel told me something which i dun understand because it is too chim liao. she said....
mel: if i didn't die, how can i be alive?
she said something like that. then at that moment, i realised that those people i killed probably didn't really die... then before i can question her further, my mum slapped my butt and yelled at me that if i still dun wake up, i am going to be late! haiz...
