yesterday, was a very bad day. i was backstabbed by my colleague A from my clique. she used my name to reject the cleaner when the cleaner wanted to chip in for the present for ah pam birthday. now the cleaner auntie thought i looked down on her and ignored me. then colleague A kinda of confessed what she have done (because i was kept in the dark all along) and i was so mad that she actually used my name to indrectly offend someone.

re-enact....
A: but u really dun like her to chip in rite?
J: but u still can't use my name wad...
A: i have no choice lol.... she kept on pestering me. i have to put it clear to her mah...
J: then wad did she say?
A: she said no wonder u show her attitude when she asked you in the morning.

back to explaination:
hello! i was coughing when she asked me and i referred her to someone else lah. i was sick yesterday and not showing attitude to anyone. it is definately hard to be yourself in the office especially in such a political environment. anyway, i am fine if she wanted to chip in for the present. whatever. i have decided not to explain things to the cleaner. worse to worse, no one clear my coffee cups, my one clean my table, no one arrange my files and blah blah... nvm, i am a independent woman!

had lunch with piggy and val todate. piggy and val are the new girls. sadly or probably blessing in disguise, piggy is the one that we have to work closely with. anyway, piggy is a veri veri hao lian junior man! she thinks she know all. she think all guys will fall for her. she talks big and so big that you can use her words to cover her butt. she questions alot - so much that Confucius will murder her. she act cute so much that teletubbies will jump into the hole before the show ended.

anyway, enough description. the lunch topic today is about my boss - michael. val and piggy bitch about him till pam cannot stand them and walked out of the pantry. but these do not put an end to it. i realised how pam felt when val was talking about playing her "games" with boss till he fall into her trap and she started to elaborate on her plot to make boss her pawn when i verbally casting doubts on her "abilities on such scheme". then when i was stunned but not impressed by what she said, she added that she won't do it because she DOESN'T want to do it. STUPID CRAP! either both of them are too innocent to think they are capable of such moves or they are damn freaking scheming. seriously, i am not ah pam to walk out of the room to show my displeasure. but i am abit digusted when they talked about such .... shameless stuffs? come on, where are we? forbidden palace? do we have to resort such tricks to turn the office into battleground?

i think i am too old for all these - for all these drama that only happened in HongKong drama. i can't believe the office can actually voted me to be the most drama baby (ok, "baby" is the word i add it myself), when so many people around me have hidden TALENTS? anyway, pam is still very pissed with them and i ? i am enjoying my banana cake. mmm... the cake is nice today. oh ya, back to my conclusion- i can't wait to leave here.

People are in the dark; they dunno what to do;
I had a little lantern, oh but it got blown out too;
I'm reaching out my hand, i hope you are too;
i just want to be in the dark with you.

She wants nothing more than a stressful life;
She wants nothing less than the joyous times;
She wants nothing special under the starry nights;
She wants nothing ordinary when inspiration shines.