SAT
Supposed to be a clubbing night with my jamsc but things really screwed up very badly. I got so many disappointments from my members and i was so strucked with the "leftover" group throughout the night. I felt so out of place with them. I knew they were doing me a favour by staying with me throughout but at the meantime, i could sensed that obligation in them. Seriously, i am grateful to them and i am glad that it was marlin and not ..... with us otherwise, i would not even stay. At the other hand, i wanna to blame someone for all these unhappiness but i can't bring myself to do it. I can't say for sure that i won't do what she have done if i were in her shoes. I respected her choice but on the other hand, i really questioned my friendship with jamsc.

I am so lost now because i have forgotten the reasons for all these choices i have made months ago... i have given up hope in things i used to concern in the past.

People are in the dark; they dunno what to do;
I had a little lantern, oh but it got blown out too;
I'm reaching out my hand, i hope you are too;
i just want to be in the dark with you.

She wants nothing more than a stressful life;
She wants nothing less than the joyous times;
She wants nothing special under the starry nights;
She wants nothing ordinary when inspiration shines.