I am a bad friend at times especially when my attitude gets into me. I am lame and ignorant but i am not dumb and stupid afterall. I admit i am sarcastic but i always appreciate my friends' thoughtful counts. I am petty but i can be forgiving if i want to.

Well, i guess i can't expect people be the same forever. Changes. It take place most of the times and i am numb to it. Looking back at 2005, I can conclude that my friends really changed alot. I am a chatty person in nature but i felt so restricted engaging into a conversation with a close friend. or should i say, used to be my close friend? I am so sorry that i can no longer engaging into a bimbotic or himbotic conversation. I am not trying to be smart or act class but well, i can't handle childish kids anymore. It is so pathetic to lose that 'feel' in a friendship.

I am sad too. Especially knowing people out there that think they are noble to sacifice more. Well, i dun feel sad when i put in more effort in a friendship but i felt pathetic when people came to criticize your effort and claimed they can do better than you. Wow, did i mention i have great friends?

By the way, i am a very materialistic girl that i stopped shopping in 'this fashion'. But if i received a 'this fashion' clothes or jeans, i would really appreciate it. Although i dunno i might burn it or wear it in future, i am grateful to my friends because she still think of me when she is shopping in the 'this fashion'.

Thanks friends!

People are in the dark; they dunno what to do;
I had a little lantern, oh but it got blown out too;
I'm reaching out my hand, i hope you are too;
i just want to be in the dark with you.

She wants nothing more than a stressful life;
She wants nothing less than the joyous times;
She wants nothing special under the starry nights;
She wants nothing ordinary when inspiration shines.