One day, this innocent boy asked: ‘Is working that tiring? Isn’t working like playing computer game the whole day?’

Yup, working is like playing the computer game the whole day. You control all the movements and emotions. You have to take up all the challenges in your everyday situation. Once the game master declared ‘Game Over’, it literally means it is over. Other people might see this game as their hobby or a parcel of their lives but I take this game seriously because it is my ‘rice bowl’. I am pauper and I can’t live without money. As simple as that, I am a pauper and since I can’t further my studies, I have to work for a living.

Yes, I am blogging now but that doesn’t mean I am free. It just basically means I am having a holiday mood and that sentence doesn’t mean that my boss is feeling the same too. People asked me stupid questions like, ‘why are you so tired? is working that tired?’, and I choose silence as a form of reply. I don’t wish to waste my breath to entertain such questions.

I am harsh with my words in nature. That is me. I am sarcastic and straight forward. That is me, Jamie Ong and I can’t help it to stab everyone with my sarcasm. I am unpredictable and moody at ALL times. Well, I am also stupid enough not to draw a line between humour and seriousness in life. Yup, so sorry to those who cannot stand me, but listen up, I am not going to change! So Friends, you have two choices now, one to take it and second, to leave me now. Guess what? I also cannot stand friends who claimed to be my friends and yet always to turn away from me because they think I brought nothing but embarrassment to them. Well, from the start, they have already classified me as a big joke so why are you picking on me now?

I can’t take such shit anymore. I admit I have changed but for the better or for the worse, only God knows. Thus, don’t judge me because you aren’t God and if you don’t like me, tell me straight to my face and leave me! I am not that useless yet to ask for sympathetic.

I can accept comments and advises but please put it nicely or at least put it in a way like you are willing to engage a discussion with me and not in a way to deliver a judgment. Unlike my other smart friends, I am such a pathetic fool and I can feel inferior at times. I am so sorry but I don’t have your that confidence in my gut and I would rather choose to deal with things humbly so please…. don’t force me to become someone you wish me to be. You are just wasting your time to force a pig to fly when the pig don’t even want to fly. Even one day, this little pig can fly; it will not feel superior to other pigs just because it can fly.

Now, to my boy, I am unpredictable so it is okay that you don’t understand me. I don’t need a mind-reader and I don’t like people to predict my moves otherwise life would be sad for me. But all I want you is to look things at different point of views. There are so many angles to look at and yet you are always looking at your own angle which in turn you missed out a lot of good things. Most of the good things are perhaps what you are looking for. I am not angry anymore. I am just tired.

People are in the dark; they dunno what to do;
I had a little lantern, oh but it got blown out too;
I'm reaching out my hand, i hope you are too;
i just want to be in the dark with you.

She wants nothing more than a stressful life;
She wants nothing less than the joyous times;
She wants nothing special under the starry nights;
She wants nothing ordinary when inspiration shines.